I don't get it!

Yesterday started off with such promise and it was a great day right up until one of my friends came to my desk.  Looking up at him I knew something was wrong, I had not put in an IT issue but you never know when there are updates and the like that are being done.  I could see he was upset and when I asked 

'Hi, how are you' he said not good I just came to say goodbye.' 

My head started to spin, did I really hear him say Goodbye, your brain is trying to keep up with events at this point, and so you keep asking clarifying questions, are you leaving? whats happened.

It them spills out, he and another guy in IT department have been retrenched!

I just want to say right now I really hate this new term for loosing your job, it's like collateral damage, you are just trying to sanitize a very ugly thing.


He had been retrenched earlier in the week, bundled in a taxi and away from the office.  This was the first day back and I talked to him till his 'farewell lunch' he didn't want to go but felt he should.  I think he was braver than I would of been.


You may be thinking yeah well these things happen, it wasn't just him 6 people were retrenched.  All have live, responsibilities and commitments.  Some are going to find it easier than others to get another job due to their age, I pray for every one of them as this is going to be an exceptionally hard weekend.


I still feel a numbness today, do I feel equally anxious about my own job, who doesn't!


I am not looking forward to the next day in the office, there is an anxiety and grieving that is hanging over the place like a toxic cloud.


Thank goodness it's Saturday!