2012, what a year!
So many funerals, sadness and goodbyes.
There are some years your just glad to wave goodbye too, as you can't believe the next year could be worse. I did feel that last year but realise this year is one that I will stagger to the end of tomorrow.
I do wonder what 2012 will bring, is there another financial crisis looming, global conflict, or will we have a year that is calm, one where we can take stock, spend time with friends and family and 'smell the roses'
As we move into 2012 I do hope for a year with less stress, full of fun and laughter.
Happy New Year
Thursday, December 29, 2011
Monday, December 19, 2011
I don't understand
Today I got that phone call, that one that starts off with
"I have some bad news for you"
Someone I know, had taken their life, suicide.....
I don't understand, I have felt down, I have even felt like everyone would be better off without me. At those 3am dark hours, before dawn and the promise of the day and the future.
So close to Christmas, I feel myself numbly looking around, like the pin has pricked that Christmas bubble.
I think the question will haunt me for days to come,
How can you feel there is no way out but to obliterate yourself?
"I have some bad news for you"
Someone I know, had taken their life, suicide.....
I don't understand, I have felt down, I have even felt like everyone would be better off without me. At those 3am dark hours, before dawn and the promise of the day and the future.
So close to Christmas, I feel myself numbly looking around, like the pin has pricked that Christmas bubble.
I think the question will haunt me for days to come,
How can you feel there is no way out but to obliterate yourself?
Wednesday, December 14, 2011
Star Wars Christmas
It didn't take long but it was so much fun. Carols playing in the background and we even found a song titles.
"R2D2 wishes you a Merry Christmas"
Sometimes its those moments in life that make you smile that can truly make all the difference.
Wednesday, December 7, 2011
One kick too many
Today is a struggle, to get up, to smile to just take the next step.
One kick too many and I find myself spiraling down into a depressed ball crying on the floor.
You look back at the things that have happened and any, by them selves would not have had this effect, it's the accumulative effect of one on to of the other to the point you just don't want to even attempt to get up.
So today I am wearing blah clothes, can't find my smile.
Tomorrow is a new day, but today I give myself permission to feel bad and down, everyone deserves one day to feel bad, when bad stuff happens.
One kick too many and I find myself spiraling down into a depressed ball crying on the floor.
You look back at the things that have happened and any, by them selves would not have had this effect, it's the accumulative effect of one on to of the other to the point you just don't want to even attempt to get up.
So today I am wearing blah clothes, can't find my smile.
Tomorrow is a new day, but today I give myself permission to feel bad and down, everyone deserves one day to feel bad, when bad stuff happens.
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